Anonymous asked:

Jess, My horse is gone. His lessee called me at school last night to tell me. I don't know what to do or what to think and every keeps telling me to be grateful, be grateful I had him for so long. But I'm not grateful, I'm so fucking angry and I feel like I've been hit by a truck. When does this get better? When will it go away? I want him back. I didn't even get to say goodbye or tell him how much I love him.

Oh god. I am so sorry. I won’t pretend there is anything I can say to ease you’re pain… There isn’t. You will feel like your chest is about to cave in for a while, and then when the constant hurt eases you’ll still feel like you got punched in the chest every time a thought of him crosses through your mind. Three years later and I can’t even utter Airy’s name in conversation without loosing my breath and fighting tears.

Nothing makes the short term feel better but I can tell you what will help you feel “better” later (better is subjective, this loss will never feel “ok”)… Let yourself hurt for the horse you LOVED and lost. Write about him. Write his name, write what you had and what is no longer there, write about the future you planned… Talk if you want but don’t feel like you have too… But write it all down. Writing it is cathartic but it also ensures that every mental image you want to save is stored. Don’t try to forget because remembering hurts… It will hurt more later when you realize what you’ve forgotten, or what memories you’ve dulled.

Don’t give yourself a time line to when it shouldn’t hurt… No such thing exists, this loss will always hurt… And it should. If it didn’t hurt, you didn’t loose something worth hurting for and I know, like you do, that these animals, the loves of our lives are worth hurting for.

ATTENTION FRIENDS IN THE NTX AREA! 

Look how much joy our giant windchime, a part of our Sensory Trail at New Hope Equine Assisted Therapy brings our riders!! Anyone who follows my facebook knows what an amazing job I have and what an incredible thing therapeutic riding is for everyone involved… 

October 25 2014 is our Fall Festival and a chance to come see what we do first hand! Plus pony rides, a silent auction face painting, bobbing for apples and all that fun Fall stuff.

I hope all see everyone there and if you’re interested in being a bigger part of the Fall Festival, or New Hope we are *still* accepting silent auction donations and we are ALWAYS accepting project donations and volunteers! And yes, as a 501c its all tax deductible an time volunteered qualified for NHS & college requirements!I greatly appreciate any reblogs if you have TX followers!!

ATTENTION FRIENDS IN THE NTX AREA!

Look how much joy our giant windchime, a part of our Sensory Trail at New Hope Equine Assisted Therapy brings our riders!! Anyone who follows my facebook knows what an amazing job I have and what an incredible thing therapeutic riding is for everyone involved…

October 25 2014 is our Fall Festival and a chance to come see what we do first hand! Plus pony rides, a silent auction face painting, bobbing for apples and all that fun Fall stuff.

I hope all see everyone there and if you’re interested in being a bigger part of the Fall Festival, or New Hope we are *still* accepting silent auction donations and we are ALWAYS accepting project donations and volunteers! And yes, as a 501c its all tax deductible an time volunteered qualified for NHS & college requirements!

I greatly appreciate any reblogs if you have TX followers!!

I’m so frustrated…

I didn’t realize how badly I was taken advantage of by a couple pony moms until literal MONTHS after the fact.


I hope you’re super proud of all my time you got for free… There were so many more deserving families. If you CAN afford something, pay for it… Doing what you did just proves what a selfish human you are.


Never again.

nothingspecialherederp asked:

Please stop tagging your Börse with gadget it akways appears if you search fir inspector gadget and it gets annoying to See this Börse over and over again

Yeah no. I use the tag so people can search internally in my blog and I’ll continue to tag my horses by their names.

Jovie and Chancen on a hack after one of his best lessons…. Finally he’s trotting on his own! It’s been an uphill battle because really he’d rather be playing video games. Today he told me over and over that horses and riding are now hod favorite things in the world so maybe he’ll be a little equestrian after all!

Jovie and Chancen on a hack after one of his best lessons…. Finally he’s trotting on his own! It’s been an uphill battle because really he’d rather be playing video games. Today he told me over and over that horses and riding are now hod favorite things in the world so maybe he’ll be a little equestrian after all!